I had to deal with it. Broken Trust. A Limp. Mine was broken. I wanted to be a power house believer. But I lacked the basic equipment to trust. Because of family of origin dysfunction, personal injury, wrong choices I simply lack basic trust. Like I struggled with a handicap and worse couldn’t see it. Basic trust, the ability to be completely vulnerable to someone (God) because you are convinced they love you and will not hurt you. Deep down I didn’t have it. This video is so powerful and talks about trusting God no matter what. About two farmers who prayed for rain. How it restored my broken trust.
When basic trust is damaged at an early age (Attachment) or never formed to begin with the results can be an inability to trust others especially God at a deeper level. So when this kind of conversation occurs between a Pastor and Coach Grant, it reaches in and grabs my heart to remember. Father Loves Me. It resonates out of Psalm 103. I love to read it and hear again across fields of grace, my Father loves me. This is from the Message Bible.
O my soul, bless God. From head to toe, I’ll bless his holy name! 2 O my soul, bless God, don’t forget a single blessing! 3 He forgives your sins – every one. He heals your diseases – every one. 4 He redeems you from hell – saves your life! He crowns you with love and mercy – a paradise crown. 5 He wraps you in goodness – beauty eternal. He renews your youth – you’re always young in his presence. 6 God makes everything come out right; he puts victims back on their feet. 7 He showed Moses how he went about his work, opened up his plans to all Israel. 8 God is sheer mercy and grace; not easily angered, he’s rich in love. 9 He doesn’t endlessly nag and scold, nor hold grudges forever. 10 He doesn’t treat us as our sins deserve, nor pay us back in full for our wrongs. 11 As high as heaven is over the earth, so strong is his love to those who fear him. 12 And as far as sunrise is from sunset, he has separated us from our sins. 13 As parents feel for their children, God feels for those who fear him. 14 He knows us inside and out, keeps in mind that we’re made of mud. 15 Men and women don’t live very long; like wildflowers they spring up and blossom, 16 But a storm snuffs them out just as quickly, leaving nothing to show they were here. 17 God’s love, though, is ever and always, eternally present to all who fear him, Making everything right for them and their children 18 as they follow his Covenant ways and remember to do whatever he said. 19 God has set his throne in heaven; he rules over us all. He’s the King! 20 So bless God, you angels, ready and able to fly at his bidding, quick to hear and do what he says. 21 Bless God, all you armies of angels, alert to respond to whatever he wills. 22 Bless God, all creatures, wherever you are – everything and everyone made by God. And you, O my soul, bless God!T TWO FARMERS DESPERATELY NEEDED RAIN. Both of them prayed for rain. But only one of them went out and planted his field. Which one do you think trusted God to send the rain? Which one are you?
WHICH ONE ARE YOU?
Saw a storm coming from the east, my dad said it won’t make it. I keep feeling the sense of the Lord tugging my heart. It is coming. While weather predictors know the patterns and they can call it pretty clearly, there is not one of them that can over rule our Heavenly Father who is the Divine Engineer of these Cosmos. That storm completely changed and by the time it go to our house it was a mighty downpour.
Elijha had that experience. Well perhaps it was his servant. Elijah prayed and there was no rain… Elijah prayed and it rained. We are men and women just like Elijah.[/vc_column_text]